To My Son in Korea

My dear Nathan,

Yesterday you turned 14 months old. You are still so far away from us physically, but you are never far from our thoughts. Yesterday I was just feeling so sad, knowing that it is still going to be months before I get to see your face. I wonder about the things I am missing in your life. I'm guessing that by now you can stand up, crawl, maybe even walk. I wonder what toys you like, what you enjoy doing, what makes you smile. I can't wait until I get to know those things about you! Your sweet face runs through my mind so many times throughout the day. When I see your brother Matthew playing, I can picture you standing beside him and playing with him (or maybe teaching him how to share?? :) I cannot wait to have two little boys running around our house. Matthew has learned how to say your name, but I don't think he has a clue what it means to have a brother! He is in for a big surprise! I think you two will have lots of fun together and I hope you will be the best of friends. I am so glad to know you are happy and loved and cared for in Korea. It would be so much harder if I knew nobody was caring for you and giving you attention, but I am so thankful that your foster mother is doing such a great job of loving you and keeping you happy and healthy. I can't wait to meet her and to tell her 'thank you' for all she has done. I'm sure it will be hard for her to let you go, but I hope we can show her how much we love you and want you to be our little boy. We are so glad that you are going to be our son forever! I can't wait until I can kiss your cheeks and squeeze your little legs and brush that crazy hair of yours :) You are so precious to us and we can't wait until we can come and get you. We love you and we will see you soon!

Mommy