Friday, December 13, 2013

A Cold and Cozy Week

Let me start by saying that I had to look up how to spell "cozy" here in America...being British/Canadian/American really messes with your spelling abilities!

It's been a cold one around here but I haven't let that stop me from running....all bundled up of course!


I was thinking as I ran that if you'd told me five years ago that I would be running (let alone running in winter!) I would never have believed you!  It's kind of fun to do things that make me not recognize myself, you know?  To do things I never expected I would or could.  Like training for my second half marathon, for example!

Even though its been cold outside, it is nice and cozy inside these days with our twinkly lights and roaring fire.  I came home to this scene the other evening and just smiled and grabbed the camera.  Brad was helping the boys fix a toy train and it was just one of those moments that made my heart really, really happy.


More happiness - snuggling my sister's sweet, beautiful baby girl!  Does she have the best cheeks or what? :)  I can't get enough of her!


One of the best things about this time of year (for me and for the kids) is all the new toys we get thanks to birthdays and Christmas.  It is always fun having something new to play with!  The kids have been enjoying this new toy, called "Straws and Connectors".  My favorite part - no batteries, totally silent, hours of creative play!  (And yes, this one required parental help!).


It's been a happy week.  It's Friday again, and I'm exhausted, but it's been a good week.  I love seeing these little faces every day!




And now I must go and do something productive before the whole day gets away from me!  Happy Friday!

Saturday, December 07, 2013

Random

When Hannah says, "Water!" it sounds like she is saying, "Vodka!"  Kind of a funny mix-up :)


Today I got new running shoes.  And a fabulous Garmin GPS watch as an early birthday present.  I went for a very, very cold 2 mile run with my buddy this morning and wondered, "Why do I do this?!?"

Nathan is doing awesome in speech therapy!  He never complains about practicing his words and has been working so hard on the "f" sound at the beginning of words and in the middle of words.  Hearing him say, "muffin" instead of "muh-shin" was pretty cool tonight.  I'm so proud of him and excited to see his progress.

I got the urge to rearrange the basement (schoolroom) this week...so I did!  I like it a lot and it feels less cluttered.

Last week I got some fun stuff in the mail!  On Black Friday I got a great deal (60% off and free shipping) on some 10-drawer craft carts that I am going to use as workboxes for homeschooling.  The boys already love it and it makes organizing and going through our school time so quick and easy!  I will post more about this soon.

Matthew had ear tubes put in almost two years ago.  He has done really well and hasn't had any ear infections...until now.  He has been sick for almost a month and has ear infections in both ears.  We go back to the ENT in a month to see if he has to have ear tubes put in again.  In the meantime, his hearing is horrible because of the fluid in his ears.  It is hilarious trying to get three kids all with hearing loss to bed in the same room!  We have to talk so loud and it doesn't seem very restful or peaceful!

I just ordered the first book of a curriculum called Five in a Row.  I am super excited to add this in to our days.  It is literature-based and from what I understand we will read the same book for five days (we will do this over two weeks  as we don't do school every day) and then do activities for different subjects (math, art, science etc.) connected to the book.  I absolutely love books and want to pass this on to my children, and I think this curriculum will help!

We just made the switch from disposables to cloth diapers for overnight (the kids are all potty trained in the day) and I think I love it.  It is more work and I have to make sure I have them washed by bedtime, but I'm getting used to remembering :) They are super cute and we laugh at Hannah's huge behind every time we put one on her!

It's 8:30pm and I am waiting for the boys to fall asleep so that I can go to bed!  Another crazy Saturday night around here :)


Friday, December 06, 2013

Friday Friday Friday

It's Friday, and I'm glad.

I start out the week so full of energy, ready to take on the challenges of the week, eager for school, looking forward to the days ahead.

By Friday, I often feel like I'm barely hanging on, counting down the hours until Brad comes home!  The weekends are so great, having help with the kids, having an adult around to talk and laugh with, it's so refreshing.  I really am loving these days with my little ones and don't often feel like I'm just surviving (anymore) but there is something so great about having us all together.

We don't have any big plans this weekend as Matthew is still fighting sickness and Brad came home from work early today not feeling well.  I am starting to get excited about running again even though I have not been very consistent lately, and I'm looking forward to a run tomorrow morning with my new running buddy who lives just down the street!  I'm hoping to maybe get some new running shoes this weekend as I have big plans for the coming year...

Before blogging I was just working on this...


...my schedule for the next few months!  My goal is to run an 8k race in February (5 miles) and then to head straight into half marathon training to run a half in May.  I thought about doing one this year but with adjusting to three kids and the lack of sleep I just didn't have it in me.  I'm still not sure I do, but I am going to give it a try :)

My motto for this season of life: one day at a time!


Tuesday, December 03, 2013

A Fun Day of Allergy Testing

It's just what every little boy wants for his birthday - allergy testing!


Matthew and I set out this morning for his annual allergy testing, and even though the doctors visit part was not fun, the rest of our time together was great.  I love having one on one time with the kids.

I both dread and look forward to these tests each year.  I am always hopeful that things will have changed and we'll find out his allergies are less severe or even gone.  But I also know it's quite likely that it may be years until this happens, if ever.  So I try to take a "wait and see" approach.

Today Matthew had a skin prick test.  He was tested for milk, egg, casein (a protein in milk), peanut, almond, cashew, and hazelnut.  After only a few minutes it became pretty obvious he is still allergic to most of these :( His egg reaction was the largest, and the others were all pretty big too.  Poor kid was wanting to scratch his itchy arms!  No reaction to almond, which is good, but he probably won't be able to eat these anyway since they're so often processed with other tree nuts.


For some reason I've been having a really hard time accepting that Matthew actually has a peanut allergy.  That probably sounds silly; it doesn't even really make sense to me.  He has had a positive blood test and a positive skin prick test (several, actually) but I know that there can be false positives.  Somehow I thought this one wasn't right, he has never eaten peanut (as far as we know) so I thought that eventually they would do a food challenge and we'd find out he wasn't really allergic after all.  But when I asked the doctor today I got a little dose of reality.  He told me that when someone has a reaction (red bump) larger than 6mm, there is a 95% chance that if they eat that food they will have a reaction.  Matthews reaction was over 8mm :(  Peanut reactions can be the most severe, and that's scary.  But I guess it's time for me to accept that one.

So, here we are.  I always feel a bit down when he has these tests, being reminded that it's true, remembering that he could be really hurt one day by food, and that this isn't going away anytime soon...it just stinks.  So today I'll be sad about it, and tomorrow we'll get back to regular life, remembering that it's not all that bad after all.  There are blessings in even these difficulties, as I am reminded so often to trust the Lord with my sweet little boy. 

Monday, December 02, 2013

And Then He Was Five

It feels like just a moment ago that he was placed in my arms.  Tiny, beautiful, with big brown eyes taking in everything around him...and he was all mine.  That moment, the moment I became his mom, everything changed.  It's hard to remember life before him.  I know one thing for sure - it was way less fun!

Today my baby, who is not a baby but will always be my baby, turned FIVE!


His heart melts me on a regular basis and he never ceases to amaze me.  This week as we talked about buying presents for a little girl in foster care, we talked about how he lived with his foster mom before coming to live with me, his forever mommy.  He was quiet for a moment and then said, "I have a great idea!  Maybe you could be her forever mommy, like you're my forever mommy!"

We talked a little about foster care, how she might already have a forever mommy who needed a little bit of time to sort some things out, or how she might not have one yet, but that we can't be her forever family right now because we don't have any more room or any more beds.  With a smile he said, "Well I have a great idea!  She could share my bed!"

Oh, how I pray he always keeps that compassionate heart that is ready to love, to welcome others, to be kind.  More than anything I pray that he will know and understand how much he is loved by Almighty God.  I have no idea what the coming years hold for this precious boy of mine, but it is exciting and amazing to see him change and grow and learn every day.  What a gift he is to us!

Happy Birthday, Matthew!

We are so thankful that you're ours!

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Then and Now


It's been 9 wonderful months with our little girl and today I came across these pictures as I prepared to take her passport application in.  On the left, her picture taken in China for her Citizenship Certificate. On the right, her picture taken yesterday for her passport.  It's been a great 9 months and look how our little sweetie has blossomed!

She has surprised us over and over again with her resiliency, her determination, and her perseverance.  I am excited to get to know her more day by day and to see her grow and change.  She is such a blessing to our family!

Saturday, November 02, 2013

Preschool Fun

 Here's a little of what we've been up to this week!

I plan our school activities one week at a time, usually on the weekends.  It does not take too long but I've found it makes such a big difference if I have it well planned.  We have started using workboxes, which is something I've learned about from many other homeschool blogs.  I plan about 5 activities for each child to do each day that we're going to do school, and this typically takes us around an hour.  If we don't get to something, it's no big deal.  If we need to switch things around, we do.  I love having things planned out and I'm a total nerd with my charts and notes :)


This is our "workbox" area.  Their first activity is usually handwriting and so it's on the table when they come downstairs.  Their other four activities go in these boxes (Matthew's in the top four, Nathan's in the middle four, and Hannah's in the bottom four).  This way I can put everything needed for each activity in the box and when it's time I just grab everything out - no looking around for things!


We work for the most part at our big table, although we often spread out for other activities.  Matthew and I do his reading sitting on the floor in front of the whiteboard.  Nathan likes to do things at the little kid table.  Hannah often gets down and just wanders around playing with toys (which is fine, as long as she's happy!!).


Here are some pictures of school on Friday.  While Matthew worked on one page of his math book (he is learning simple addition), Hannah and Nathan put beads onto pipe cleaners that were stuck into playdoh.  They both loved this!


To make Nathan think a little more, I started some patterns and asked him to keep going with the patterns.  He did great!  


Next Hannah put some little craft puffs into a container while Nathan, Matthew and I played a kite game.  Our letter this week (for Nathan) is K, so we have been doing some kite activities.  


I got the idea for this game somewhere and then just made my own - a picture of a kite, cut up into five pieces, with a number on each piece.  If its your turn you roll the die, count the dots and then pick up that piece of the kite (if you don't have it already).  Nathan is working on counting and number recognition so this was good for reinforcing that.  Matthew just thought it was fun!  It also teaches them to take turns and to not get mad if they lose :)


Matthew has always hated coloring, but these days he is much more willing to try for longer periods of time.  He colored a page that was split up into different sections with a color key telling him which color to use for the different words.  He read it himself and completed it without help.  He was very proud of himself!


While he did that, Nathan and I played "Step and Read" which I made up to help the boys practice letters/words.  Nathan had to step on a letter and read it - if he got it wrong I made him go back to the beginning (mean mommy!).  This way he practiced them a lot.  At the end he got some small prizes, which was very exciting.


Matthew's completed picture!


Last week Matthew's reading lesson was pretty intense and he worked on reading words with final blends.  It was a challenging week so this week we did some review with a lot of the new words.  He played "Step and Read" with his new words and did great!


I'm really enjoying so many aspects of homeschooling.  We were all sick for almost 2 weeks and I realized just how much school Matthew would have missed already.  Thankfully he wasn't sick enough to not read or do lessons at home, so we kept plugging away.  I love the planning, finding new ideas and playing games with the kids.  It's amazing to see the progress they've made in only a couple of months.  I don't know what the next years will hold for us, if we will continue to homeschool or not, but for now it is such a wonderful blessing to our family!

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Moments

There are moments that take my breath away because I see so clearly how far she has come.


Like tonight when I got her out of the tub.  I wrapped her up in a towel and held her like a little baby as she gazed up at me with a smile.  I sat down, still holding her, and with a mischievous grin she wriggled free from the towel and off my lap, heading full speed out of the living room and straight to the kitchen to see Daddy.  A moment later she returned, laughing at her antics, and stopped for a moment to smack her belly.

And in that moment, I remembered.  It was only 7 months ago, and we gave her a bath for the first time in China.  She was tiny, and we weren't sure if she could sit up ok in the tub by herself so we used a baby tub.  She was so quiet, so small.  But the child now standing before me was such a different child from the one I held in my arms only a few months back.

Tonight I smiled as she smacked her big, round, healthy toddler belly :) Her legs are so strong from chasing her brothers and climbing all day long.  Her arms are strong from stealing toys and chucking them at people!  She is spunky and full of energy and talkative and opinionated and loving and so many things I just didn't know at the beginning.

I read her a story before bed, and we laughed at her favorite joke for the thousandth time...I ask her where the puppy is, and she points at the wrong animal and then peeks at me out of the corner of her eye.  And I bury my head in her hair and say, "Noooo!  That's not the puppy, silly girl!" And I tickle her, and we laugh like it's the funniest thing we've ever heard.  Again and again and again we play this little game, until finally it's time to tuck her into bed.

I lay her down in her crib, put her treasured bear in one arm and a sippy cup of water that she never drinks in the other, cover her up, and play the "one more kiss" game that could really go on all night.  She smiles at me as I say good-night, with the promise that Daddy will be in in a minute to kiss her good-night, and I quietly slip out the door without any tears.  Every night I can scarcely believe that it's going this well, but it is.  And we are thankful.

I think back to the little girl we first met, so unsure, so scared, her big, dark eyes taking in everything around her.  I remember that first night when she laid on me for almost 2 hours, not making a sound, before falling asleep.  I remember Brad whispering my name in the middle of the night, and when I looked over at Hannah lying between us, I realized she was wide awake, staring silently at the ceiling.  It is so hard to think about what that must have been like for her, and I hate that she had to go through that.

I'm so thankful, though, that now we are on the other side.  She is happy....so happy.  She is one of us and she knows it.  Sometimes when I tell her that I love her, she runs right over and gives me the biggest hug and the sweetest kiss on the cheek.  She knows that she is mine, and I am hers...forever.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

On The Bright Side

We're all sick.  Yuck.  I hate that Fall always brings us so much sickness.  Every year I think to myself, "Surely this year the kids won't be as sick as last year!" and every year we are sick from October to about May.  We get a few weeks off here and there but for the most part it is almost straight through.  I hate it!

Some things that are making me smile...

This morning, Hannah finished her toast and said, "More toast!" as clear as day.  It was awesome!  I love that she is already starting to put two words together.


The boys love love love Awana!  They go and sing songs, play games, learn Bible verses, and of course enjoy a snack :)  Last week Matthew said to me, "I can't wait to go to Awana with my Nathan!".  They are best buds and love doing things together.


The other day when I went into the kids' bedroom this is what I found:


Silly children!

Matthew is doing so well with his reading program!  It is just amazing seeing him learn to read.  I love the curriculum we chose (All About Reading) and it's a perfect fit for Matthew.  Every other lesson or so he has these fluency practice pages.  Sometimes we sit and do all of it at one time, sometimes it's more challenging for him and we do it in several sittings.  We only do 15-20 minutes a day (if that) and his reading abilities are growing by leaps and bounds!




So much cuteness...so much stubbornness!  This spunky little one has me taking a lot of deep breaths these days.  I love her so much but oh man can she try my patience!  She is in the "I don't know how to share" phase which they have all gone through and she's also in the "If I see a toy I want it right now even if it's in your hands!" phase and is constantly grabbing toys that are already in the hands of someone else.  Not surprisingly the boys are not a big fan of this!!  I know that it's a stage and with consistency and patience she'll come out the other side and be able to play well with her siblings...I just wish we were there already!  This is a tiring phase and I'm glad it's also full of "firsts" and learning and smiles and kisses and enough goodness that I know it's all worth it!


Thursday, October 10, 2013

These Three

These days are FULL from morning to night!  It's nice to have a few minutes at the end of the day to just sit and breathe and try to recover enough to be ready for the next day.  What a fun week we have been having so far.  The weather is absolutely perfect right now - I just love Fall so much!

This little guy has been working hard at speech therapy for the last several weeks.  Twice a week we go to speech therapy, and my little guy happily goes off with his wonderful teacher for half an hour while Matthew, Hannah and I hang out in a teeny tiny waiting room.  Doesn't that sound like fun times??  Thankfully it hasn't been nearly as bad as I expected, although Hannah did have a lovely little meltdown today that had me looking at the clock every 3 seconds in total desperation.  Still, it's worth it to see the amazing progress Nathan is making.  He can make a clear "f" sound now and is working on words that end in the "p" sound.  He is so proud of himself and loves being able to say words more clearly.  


Little Miss Cutie Pie...oh, she is SO cute!  I can't even stand it!  She loves shoes and clothes and asks for me to do her hair every morning.  Could we be more different?  But I love it, and seeing her smile when I pick her up to show her the hairdo in the mirror is one of my very favorite things ever.


My big guy...oh, sweet boy.  This is a wonderful and fun age and I'm so thankful that we decided to keep him home this year.  Our days are filled with learning and reading and crafts and playing and coloring and walks and though some days I say otherwise, I know that really I wouldn't trade any moment of it for anything in the world.  The other morning Matthew came out of his room and asked where Brad was.  When I told him that Daddy had gone to work already, the tears started.  He rushed over to me, put his head on my shoulder and said, "That breaks my heart that Daddy is already gone to work!".  He is such a sweet and loving soul, so affectionate and cuddly, and I hope that never changes!


They're all so different and it is so much fun to see them change and grow and to see who they are becoming.  I really, really like being their mom!



Tuesday, October 01, 2013

They Have Each Other

I won't pretend that it's always peaceful around here...


There's plenty of sibling rivalry,

fights,

toy stealing,

ear pulling (Hannah's new thing),

the usual brother-sister stuff...


But even with all that,

I can say without a doubt


that these three


are better

because they have each other.


They're learning

to share

to give

to have patience

to care

to love


Becoming a family

is an amazing thing!

Friday, September 27, 2013

I Should Get A Sticker


I should get a sticker for surviving this morning.  Unbearably loud, screaming children.  A 2-year-old who knows what she wants and who makes my least favorite sound in the whole world when she doesn't get it.  I was feeling on the edge of losing it by 9am.  Not good.

I loaded everybody into the van and just drove.  They still weren't quiet...but at least they couldn't hit each other :) We needed a few things from the store and they are usually pretty well-behaved in public so we wandered the aisles and picked up milk and bananas.  Hannah wanted to walk but I wouldn't let her out of the cart...and the noise began.  I gritted my teeth and headed for the checkout.

I heard behind me, "Somebody's tired!" but didn't realize at first that the comment was directed my way.  I turned and saw three older ladies smiling at me and my cart full of children.  I smiled then turned and continued on, wondering to myself, "Did they mean Hannah...or me?!?"

Some days this job is exhausting.  Some days I feel like these little ones are sucking the life out of me!  After a snack (for them), a huge coffee (for me), a little more driving and an hour outside, things are looking a little better :)






Here's to hoping we are in for a better afternoon!!

Thursday, September 19, 2013

She's Home

Please believe me when I tell you that this little one was totally thrilled about her pigtails and that she laughed hysterically when I picked her up and showed her in the mirror.


You wouldn't know it from this picture, but today we heard more laughter from this little one than I think we ever have.  I mean, hearty belly laughs, throwing back her head because it is that funny kind of laughs.  

It feels like a whole new level of home for our little darling.  She feels safe, and she is happy, and it is so good to see!

Now if only we could get a picture of that...

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Today's Favorites


Telling the boys about our wedding that was 9 years ago today!


Matthew seeing his math book on the table this morning and shouting, "I want to do more math!"...and then watching him do it on his own!


Hannah sitting with her brothers and listening to 6 books!  Today was the first time for story time with all three...thankful for hearing aids and for all the progress this little one is making!


Taking a little breather from the little ones after Brad got home and coming out of the bedroom to find this...




I thought it was too quiet!!

It's been a good day all around and I am blessed!

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Feeling Full

Lately that is the word I would use to describe life:  full.

My heart is full, my days are full, it seems as though I couldn't imagine adding anything else in right now.

This is a new feeling for me.  When Matthew came home, I knew there was another little one waiting for me somewhere.  Within 6 months of him coming home, I was spending my evenings searching online looking for him.  I found him, by the way :)


When Nathan came home, I thought that was it (at least for a long while).  He had such a difficult adjustment and life was so difficult for months and months, and I resigned myself to the idea that maybe two was it for us.

And then all of a sudden, about 7 months after Nathan came home, I started to feel it again.  That pressing, unrelenting feeling that there was another child out there who was supposed to be in our family.  I really can't explain it except to say that I could not get it out of my head.  I could not pray it away, reason it away, or stop thinking about it.  Every night I was again online, searching for our child.

She found us, by the way!


I wondered when Hannah came home if I would still feel like this.  I wondered if I would struggle because really, we cannot adopt again right now.  Our house is full (and then some!!) and we are focused on finishing to pay off our debt (a goal we set before we started adopting!).  

Somewhere in the last 7 months though, I have settled into the idea that this is what God wants for our family for right now.  In many ways it is a relief to just be living this instead of waiting for the next big change.  Before, we would just start to enjoy things getting easier and then we would bring home a new little one and it would get hard again!  This time, it's just getting easier!  Do you know what happened last night???  I slept 8 straight hours!  And the crazy thing is, that is becoming more and more normal!  For a person who was being woken up 2-10 times a night for years (oh I wish that were an exaggeration) this is a big deal.  

I am certainly not saying "We're done!".  But I am saying, "I think we're done...for now."  I honestly believe that God could bring us another child tomorrow if He wants, and that would be okay (a shock, but okay).  I hope and pray He brings us more down the road.  We are so blessed and there are so many children waiting for families, it's hard to imagine not being a family to more.  I can't wait to see what the coming years hold for us!  It has been an adventure unlike anything I ever imagined.

Friday, September 13, 2013

Weekly Wrap-Up

I forgot to share my favorite quote of the week yesterday...

Nathan just learned the words to "Jesus Loves Me"
but he gets a little messed up..he keeps going around singing,
"Yes, Bible loves me!  Yes, Bible loves me!"
I often hear him singing in the other room
followed by Matthew saying, in a slightly irritated voice,
"It's JESUS, Nathan!  JESUS loves you!"

Silly boys :)

I am super happy that we survived the week.  When I looked at my planner last Sunday I about had a heart attack as I realized the number of appointments we had scheduled.  Two speech therapy appointments on Tuesday, an out-of-town doctors appointment for Hannah on Wednesday that I had to take all three kids to, followed by Awana, more speech therapy on Thursday, and physical therapy for Hannah on Friday (thankfully this one got cancelled!).  Occupying little ones in waiting rooms stresses me out so I was dreading all of these appointments.  Thankfully with a lot of prayer and some planning ahead, everything went well!  

Life these days is very busy with therapy and doctors appointments and trying to make time for school has been quite challenging this week.  Somehow we managed to get it all done, mostly when Hannah was napping after lunch, and I am really enjoying it and not feeling too stressed by it at all.  Matthew wouldn't even be in kindergarten yet if he were attending school so I really don't feel much pressure at this age.  They play a lot, and we sit down for maybe 30-45 minutes a day for focused lessons like handwriting, reading, math, and pre-reading activities for Nathan.  This month I decided to add in some science and we are learning about plants.  It has been fun to do some Pinterest activities together and I don't seem to dread crafts as much as I used to :)

Today we got to see my family which was lots of fun.  We are enjoying some cooler fall weather all of a sudden and it was strange to put sweatshirts and jackets on the kids after it being over 90 degrees just a couple of days ago!


No reason for this picture...just his "cheese" face making another appearance.  This kiddo made me very proud this week as he worked hard and learned the "f" sound and went off with his speech teacher all by himself to work for half an hour without any fuss.  Such a big boy!


This made me laugh the other day - our basset hound was sitting staring into the big fan that was on and her ears were just blowing in the wind!  The boys thought it was hilarious!