Three More Sleeps!

I think we are surviving the Great Mono Incident of 2011 :) After two weeks of feeling really rough I am finally starting to feel a bit better. Just in the nick of time, too! I must admit that I'm pretty nervous that the trip will wipe me out and that adding a new toddler (who is still on Korea time) to our family in just three more days may do me in, but for right now I'm just taking it one day at a time. We are so grateful that our family and friends have offered so much help and support - we could not do it without you!!!!

We have been busy the last few days getting things ready for Nathan's arrival. And when I say "we", I mean Brad, with a little direction from me as I lie on the couch :) He has been taking care of me all week as well as doing all the last minute stuff around the house. Seriously, this guy needs some kind of award. Yesterday he got the crib all ready and today he installed the car seat. It is starting to sink in that NATHAN IS COMING!

The blessing of me being so tired out is that I really haven't had the energy to worry about things at all! Usually I am an over-thinker, a worrier, a stresser-outer...but right now I am nice and relaxed, happy as a clam, and just eager to get Nathan home. You'd think that having mono would make me more stressed out, but instead I feel like I have gotten to a place where I realize that it will be okay and it is so totally out of my control so I may as well not stress.

And another blessing Brad and I realized this week? It is very likely that had we traveled, we would have been in Korea this week, when I was feeling awful, when I spent hours and hours sleeping and when standing for more than 5 minutes wore me out. Can you even imagine how awful that would have been? Thank you, Lord, for your mercies in disguise.

I can't believe it...I just can't believe that we are almost there! I had a dream about Nathan last night and now I feel more ready than ever to hold him in my arms.

Three more sleeps!

Me and My Boy(s)

For the last year and a half, it's been me and my boy. We hang out all day long, we go to the store together, play at the park, read books, run in the yard, sing songs...we have a good old time together.

I feel the weight of the change that is coming. Please do not misunderstand me - it is not at all that I don't want this change to come. I am so excited to meet Nathan and I know that it won't be long until I can't remember life without him.

But in these last few days, I am soaking in this special time, just me and my boy. This boy who was once just a picture and a name, but now he's my very own, a part of me.

There is another little boy across the world right now who I can't get out of my mind. I wonder what it will be like to hold him. How it will feel to run my finger across his cheek. What it will take to coax a smile from him. I wonder when it will hit me that he is mine, forever and ever (as we like to say around here).

Everything is about to change. Change is hard and scary, but also exciting and new. I have loved this time, just me and my little man, but I know that many sweet days lie ahead for me and my little men :)



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News

Today has been a day of news! Mostly good news, too :)

We will be meeting our sweet Nathan next Tuesday, June 14th at 4:15pm. We will stay overnight and return home the next morning. I cannot wait to get my hands on this little boy...now that we know it is for sure my heart is just filled with love and excitement for our new son.

And in other news...I have mono.

Changes

So our handy dandy paper chain, hanging in the doorway between our kitchen and living room, reminded me this morning that we are one short week away from bringing our Nathan home!

As if I could forget that!

The reality is starting to set in, along with a few circumstances that could cause me to freak out. For example, the fact that we are still waiting to hear flight times and info about when we will actually meet Nathan. Or the fact that tickets to Denver have doubled in price over the last week. Or the fact that I've been feeling really crummy for a week and had to have a blood test done for mono yesterday. I'm pretty sure it will be negative, but still...feeling rough.

Yep, I could definitely freak out about those things!

Don't get me wrong - I have had my moments. I have shed a few tears and wondered what on earth am I going to do if I am not feeling better by the time he comes???

But overwhelmingly, more than freaking out, I am feeling peace. I am so absolutely convinced that God will help me and that He is in control, and I have seen His faithfulness so many times that I know I don't need to worry about tomorrow...or next Tuesday.

I am clinging to the most wonderful truth, that although everything in this life changes, and although our whole world is about to be rocked by an adorable little 17-month-old, my God will not change.

The words of a song have been speaking to me so much recently. The song is called "All is Well" and I think it's by Robin Mark.

"All my changes come from Him

He who never changes

I'm held firm in the grasp

Of the Rock of all the ages.

All is well with my soul

He is God, in control

I know not all His plans

But I know I'm in His hands."

Today I will be excitedly packing a diaper bag (eek!) and trying to figure out what on earth I need to take to entertain a one year old on a plane for a couple of hours. This is getting so real!!!!

Happy Math

One closet

Filled with four sizes of clothing

For three seasons

Plus one dresser

With three drawers

Full of countless t-shirts, pajamas, and shorts

Equals one mama

Ready for two boys!

{2.5}

(This was supposed to be posted yesterday but our internet was down)

Two and a half.

Today my baby is two and a half years old.

At what point do I stop calling him my baby?

Maybe never?!?! :)

This little man is such a joy to me.

I may be a little biased,

but I think he is one fabulous kid!

Unless he's sick, he's pretty much always happy.

Even when he's tired, he doesn't really get cranky.

He just gets more giggly!

And he has the best laugh ever.

He is a thinker,

he has a great memory,

he loves puzzles,

recognizes all the letters of the alphabet

and can tell you the sound most letters make.

He can say 7 or 8 word sentences

and knows way too many phrases

about trains

like, "couple them up"

and "elephant is in the freight car".

He loves to sing

and his most recent favorite song

is "The Muffin Man"

which I think is kind of a weird song to love!

But for him, I'll sing it a thousand times!

It is worth it to see that smile!

Every day I wake up and think

how blessed I am to get to spend the day

with such a precious little boy.

Two and a half.

Such a big boy,

but still my baby.