Sometimes God answers such specific prayers, it blows my socks off!
On Friday, I was talking with another adoptive mama about how detached I feel this time around. We have two pictures of Hannah from when she was five months old, and as time goes on, I find that I am just not feeling very much at all because it doesn't feel very real. On the way home from my friend's house, I was talking to God about this and I asked Him to please, please let us get our update on Monday because it was time for me to feel more, care more, pray more for our daughter. I don't want to be detached anymore, even if it makes my heart hurt more.
My hand went to my mouth and I gasped as I opened my email this afternoon and saw our case worker's name in my inbox with the subject: UPDATE!!
I opened it to find the sweetest little pictures of our beautiful girl!
I mean, really, could she be any more precious? She looks so different from the last pictures we have! I love her hair, her sweet little lips, her feet (which if the update is correct are almost the same size as Matthew's!!)...I love everything about her!
We also got a two-page update (which I have read no less than 100 times already!). A few highlights:
* Wonderful news - Hannah has been with a foster family and not in an orphanage since birth like we believed! We are so thankful for this and to know that she is being cared for by a family.
* She weighs 17.6 pounds (at 14 months old)
* She has 8 teeth
* She is introverted, timid, afraid of strangers
* She loves all kinds of toys and likes being cuddled outside to play :)
* She sleeps well with adults (uh-oh! looks like lots more co-sleeping is in our future!!!)
* She is saying some words and can follow adults orders (which is amazing - we had no idea if she even had any hearing!!!)
* She can sit freely, turn over, stand for a while with holding
* When she is crying, she can calm down by giving her snacks (this one made me laugh - she will fit right in around here!!)
* She likes to eat porridge, eggs, meat soup, bananas, and has a good appetite
I can't explain it, but it is just so good to know more about her. It does make my heart hurt, and the waiting harder, but I'm so thankful to know. I hope and pray that in less than five months she will be home with us!!!!! That is really not long...but tonight, I feel like I can't wait another minute!